It's been a year since I arrived here in Japan.I still feel the same loneliness I felt when I left the Philippines last year.Nothing changed much really,same things happen here everyday.Though I believe it's different back home,time travels like a speeding bullet.One day it's like this the next day that.The specifics of this and that don't really matter much,point is things happen there quite fast.

I don't wanna appear to be ungrateful with what I have because I assure you I am the type of person who counts his blessings.I have been thankful for the things that came my way for the past year.I have been very happy with the time spent with my wife,but(there's the significant but) who I am or we are right now (I and the wife)is/are not the ones who we hoped to be. If someone guts me to death right now God knows I'd be coming back as a ghost to finish my unfinished business. I don't even feel like I've started.SIGH!

I really feel like I have to do bigger things,I don't know how big exactly but I'm sure it's bigger that what we have going on right now.I want to start asap,the sooner the better.

But right now there is still a lot to settle right now and I am not sure how delayed my train would be to get me and my wife's life back on track. I sure hope I'd understand it in the future and hope others as well.